Well, in reflecting on where I am right now, I have noticed that most of what I do in my life is be there for other people. In my life, I facilitate meetings, events, plans, housing, games, for other people in my community. In fact, tonight, even though my boys are not here for me to be responsible for and I can do whatever I want... I am still home to take care of my dogs. I work for them. It is part of my responsibility as a mother as a pet owner. I left them for 2 days while I went on vacation, they will be alone again when summer closes and I empathize with their loneliness...
Sometimes it seems as though I do need to take time for myself, but I may need to learn how to do that. I haven't done that, in so long, or ever, that I may not know how to. What's funny is that I was accused of not taking time for other people, that I was selfish. Interesting.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
Opening Statements
This is my first attempt at a blog. Not sure what to expect. Not sure how it will come back to haunt me. A journal is personal. This is public. So I certainly will need to think before I speak. But then, that's how I have lived my life anyway... trying to predict how things will be perseived ahead of time in the court of public opinion.
I want to live a four-fold life (Physical, Mental, Religious, Social) as I was exposed to through the American Youth Foundation at Merrowvista Camp in high school. However, while focusing on myself, I also need my boys to be a priority. In recent time, I have been forced to stand alone as matriarch of my family and be strong for my boys. I think that showing them that Mom can be strong while still holding down a full time job and other volunteer responsibilities in their community can help them grow into the well-rounded men that I want them to become. I want to live by example. I can't make someone be part of my journey, but I can make that journey be the most memorable I can, full of experiences and adventure. I want them to be happy with the circumstances they are presented, no matter how difficult. The glass is half-full (even if it's full of prune juice) and there are always roses to smell (even if they are mixed with stinky socks).
I want to live a four-fold life (Physical, Mental, Religious, Social) as I was exposed to through the American Youth Foundation at Merrowvista Camp in high school. However, while focusing on myself, I also need my boys to be a priority. In recent time, I have been forced to stand alone as matriarch of my family and be strong for my boys. I think that showing them that Mom can be strong while still holding down a full time job and other volunteer responsibilities in their community can help them grow into the well-rounded men that I want them to become. I want to live by example. I can't make someone be part of my journey, but I can make that journey be the most memorable I can, full of experiences and adventure. I want them to be happy with the circumstances they are presented, no matter how difficult. The glass is half-full (even if it's full of prune juice) and there are always roses to smell (even if they are mixed with stinky socks).
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